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musings of a budding social entrepeneur

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

ableton live

been messing around with ableton live a lot lately.
here's a sample of what i've been able to put together.
crap looks like yahoo briefcase doesn't actually work through my mac
bummer.

ok, figured it out
here's my sample
sample

if that doesn't work, then try opening the my shared folder in my yahoo briefcase.
look for time.aif

my yahoo briefcase

Sunday, March 27, 2005

i gotta go to traffic school

damn, i got pulled over on my way back from the beach for running a stop sign.
my options are
1) pay the fine
2) protest the citation
3) go to traffic school

i'll take door number 3.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Ocean beach

Ocean beach

Friday, March 25, 2005

Roasted tri tip

Roasted tri tip

Marinated in soy sauce, rice vinegar, sugar, siracha. 450 for 20 minutes

Finally

Finally

A sunny day

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Kid Beyond

Just saw the absolute sickest beat boxer ever.
kid beyond

he beatboxes over a looper and throws layer after layer into it. add some reverb and some tight vocals with a splash of booty bass. you get the idea.
check him if you ever get a chance to.
you will not be disappointed.

he was playing at the starry plough in berkeley tonight in the middle of their weekly poetry slam.
kid beyond vid 1
kid beyond vid 2

everything you hear is done live through his mouth.
insane.
he's playing this friday at 12 galaxies.
if you're free, you should go.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Dbl rahnbow

Dbl rahnbow

Monday, March 21, 2005

More novocaine

More novocaine

My smile after a 2nd set of fillings

Sunday, March 20, 2005

swweet

i just puked up about 3 and a half jello shots.
i feel so much bbetter now.

Im fuggin wasted

Im fuggin wasted

Took 5 jelo shotz from rum hipiez o n folsom on da way home

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Monkey mika

Monkey mika

Friday, March 18, 2005

worky worky

geez,
it's almost nine and i'm still at work.
debugging some code i've been writing for the past day and a half.
python is pretty fun until you have to start debugging the shit.
i've managed to beef up the web and email logging features of DARTH (the deployable automated regression test harness) so now you see total counts and percentages of passed vs failed unit tests.

fucking exciting.
i gotta get outta here.

Its so blah outside

Its so blah outside

Thursday, March 17, 2005

tps reports

http://www.ifilm.com/ifilmdetail/2665580?htv=12&htv=12&htv=12

This is a piece of work from www.idiotworks.com.
Brilliant!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Roadkill comedy

Roadkill comedy

Day 2

Alright, made it past the first 24 hours of quitting.
only 48 more hours till i'm past the 3 day barrier.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

desiderata - read this cuz it's beautiful

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Tom dewire's twins

Tom dewire's twins

Today marks the end

of my smoking days.
my dentist scared me yesterday with a comment about my smoking.

"have you been smoking sweetheart?" she asked.

"yes dr."

"oh, you're a very bad boy".

"yes, i know"

"look, this is what your teeth look like" - she puts the camera into my mouth and gives me an up close look at the back of my tobacco stained teeth... gross. "i can guarantee you that your lungs look 10 times worse than that, and we can't clean them!"

that did it for me.
i'm done.
wish me luck.

Monday, March 14, 2005

one month

actually it's been exactly 32 days and several minutes since she and i split up. 2 and a half weeks since our last communication.
next week would have marked our 3rd year anniversary.
why am i torturing myself with these rememberances?
last week, i had this recurring thought that if i were to get the opportunity to ask her one question, that it would go something like, "do you think there's someone else out there for you? is that any part of why we're apart now?"
guess that's really 2 questions. but who's counting?
anyway you break it down it all comes down to one question really.
are we going to be together?
i doubt that this past month has done anything to help her feel more able to answer that question.
i don't even have an answer to that anymore.

sometimes i wonder... if we were in a cirucumstance where we were to try again, how would things be different? what would it take to keep me happy and invested? what it it take to keep her happy? it's taken us over a year of trying to find those things together only to fail in the end. how could i possibly expect something this soon? seems pretty clear that now would not be a good time to try.

this has been the longest month of my life.

Pain tools

Pain tools

The dentist used all of these on me today. My dentist fetish days r officially over

Novo-smile

Novo-smile

This is my smile on drugs (after a gallon of novocaine)

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Amc makin wedding placeholders

Amc makin wedding placeholders

Vijay et amit @ 222

Vijay et amit @ 222

Baytong

Took myself out on a solo date to see a screening of baytong.
Was pretty good. I liked it. Not too heavy for a sunday afternoon.

directions in sound

last night's directions in sound party was pretty fun. triple threat dj's. this asian mc called 'kero one'. worked a shift from 9-11 as a 'runner'. not entirely sure what i was supposed to be doing though. so i just smoked a bunch of cigarettes outside and left to get some pizza. got to wear a headset for a few hours and pretend like i was important. met some nice people. had a few drinks... danced around a bit and effed my back up some more. after last call, hit the street to find an after hours plan. ended up grabbing a few tacos with mori, annamae, and the ish. then over to ish's for some late night poker. went head to head with zoller at the end. he took it on a bullshit pocket pair.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Mr n mrs ipod

Mr n mrs ipod


Dirty Ole Man Hastings and his new ipod. A bunch of us chipped in for an ipod avec accessories.

Sporty spice

Sporty spice

B j n k

B j n k

Da ish

Da ish

Chris's bday

Chris's bday

A h n s

A h n s

Box unscrew

Box unscrew

this is an audio post - click to play

Friday, March 11, 2005

Its here

Its here

Me n michelle krusiec

Me n michelle krusiec


damn my head is so shiny that its reflection could freeze a deer.
i need to find some anti-shine lotion or something...

Naata gala

Naata gala


Went to the opening night gala for the sf international asian american film festival. geez that's a mouthful. got dudded up in my vietnamese tailored suit, shirt, and shoes for the first time. i was a pimp. met with brent and his friend eileen from back home. got pretty boozed up on free crown royal. ran into a lot of old friends. was good to be out.

Ancient hoi an relics

Ancient hoi an relics

Naata gala

Naata gala

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

This sunday night in SF (3/20/05)

We suck donkey dick.
We don't have an official name for our party yet. It's just so darn difficult to put a single generic label on a party that we overheard one of our guests describe as, "an experience that brings you as close to attaining nirvana as one can possibly imagine". I mean, we _could_ call it nirvana or enlightenment or something like that,,, but that would be soo lame now wouldn't it? Not to mention pretentious.

So we, the representatives of the tentatively named 'CLUB ANONYMOUS' would like to invite you to come on down this sunday night to club 222 (in the tenderly fabulous loin) to give us your bestest, contest-winning recommendations. We'll make it worth your while by offering an official grand jury selected prize to the winner!* (see below for more).

Here's more details...

-------------------------------------------------------
CLUB ANONYMOUS... FREE OF CHARGE!!
ie. NO COVER!!
anonymous music, anonymous people, anonymous libations, specific location.
- Located@222 Club [222 Hyde@Turk)]
- from 6-10PM
with sangria specials! and great freshbaked pizzas!

- hosted by your favorite dj saviorselectas...
victoriano dixon (aka vijay d)
bobbito hathaway (aka brent h)
constantine richardson (aka christian r) &
alejandro wilson (aka amit w)

- With super-special-BIRTHDAY guest stars...
Dirty Ole Man Hastings (aka Chris) avec
Birthday Princess Warrior Brebach (aka Rachel)
-------------------------------------------------------

Hope to see you there!

Yours truly,
Monsieur. Richardson

btw
If you honestly have no clue know how you got onto our list and want off, you can pursue one of the following 4 options...
1) reply to this mail with 'WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS?!' in the subject line, and we'll gladly remove you from all future correspondence.
2) create a filter in your email client that automagically sends mails from '74styles' to the trash
3) change your email address and finally signup for that gmail account you've been sweating for a while. we all did it and now we never get random e-vites!
4) write your congressman about the bad spam people who just won't stop!

*CONTEST RULES
Sometime before the end of april, we'll pick the best suggested name (by a 4 person blind and drunken vote), and the unfortunate winner will get a sunday night of drinks on the house for theirself and a significant other of their choosing!

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Sorrow relief

Sorrow relief

S n d

S n d

Danny's a dickhed

Danny's a dickhed

Greek salad

Greek salad

Tomatos, cukes, egplant, onions, oil, lemon, balsamic

bummin... bigtime

Q: Shall I or shall I not write about my personal feelings in my blog?

A: Fuggit, why not?

Feelin pretty sorry for myself today. Bad case of the lonelies. Wish I could talk to her. A small gathering of unanswerable questions has formed around me. Questions whose answers may or may not help find a cure for whatever I've managed to contract. How am I supposed to proceed?

Partying has been my temporary oasis. At the end of my nights the oasis fades into mirage and i'm left with my feelings... and they suck. trying to keep a healthy balance though. it's critical i not ignore the sadness. gotta learn to keep on, keep on truckin.

so we've got this 'no talk' rule right now. it's supposed to make all of this easier. starting to question the validity of that rule. maybe this is one of those that was meant to be broken? i wanna know what she's thinking... i wanna know whether to give up. is that what she wants me to do? but i'm not supposed to ask.

gonna shut it for now... keep on truckin... just ride this one out.

My new lcd monitor

My new lcd monitor

Monday, March 07, 2005

Starry-eye surprise

Starry-eye surprise

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Dolores

Dolores

me n my shadow

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flowers

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dreamlog

I just had this crazy ass dream that I was at this NBA all star game in las vegas. they were serving complimentary prime rib during the halftime show, but the lines were way too long... so alan and i said, fuggit, lets get some burger king instead.
so we ordered some bk and then walked around while we waited for our food. later we got back to pick up our orders, but they weren't ready. so we waited around some more only to discover that our orders had been lost somehow. before getting completely irate and throwing a hissy-fit, i tendered a deal.
"Since you lost our orders, how about just subbing my royale with cheese with a slab of prime rib". I don't know why this didn't seem like a fair trade to the cashier, but she wasn't having it. "Sorry sonny, get in line like everyone else if you want the prime-rib".
So I lost my shit, yelling and screaming at the cashier, a bitchy woman in her late 60's. "I'm trying to give you a break here bitch! What the hell kind of customer service is this? My way, right away?!? We've been waiting for over an hour for our 'fast food' and now you're telling me that i need to wait some more? geez!"...
Out of the corner of my mind, i hear a voice say, "why don't you just fix yourself a quesadiLLa?".. what?

screw bk. alan and i leave without our food and split up for a second. i'm walking across the court as the halftime show preparations come into swing... a flash of cash laying on the hardwood catches my eye, i instantaneously swoop it up. two dollars. sweet. i see a safeway receipt wadded up around what looks to be like some more greens and i repeat the motion.
as i peel back the receipt, i glance down to my hand to see a few twenties, a 50 a 500 and a 1000 dollar bill!! do they even make those? paranoia invades as i scan the crowd around me. i cross eyes with a spur-sporting cowboy who says, "hey dude, that's my money!" GASP!
I hand him the two bucks that i had picked up just before... "here you go sir",,, "well, shucks, thanks sonny"..

why's everyone calling me "sonny"?

Where the hell is alan? i bump into stephen copp and he asks me if i'm going to be an extra in shaq's halftime show. he's going to be one of 'shaq's prisoners'.
apparently shaq is attempting a comeback as an mc and is doing the halftime show with beyonce... and there's a prison theme to it. they need extras to standin the background behind bars as prisoners.
brilliant, if i change into the prison getup and join the show, nobody, particularly the owner of this huge wad of monopoly money will recognize me... but crap, if I need to run the this damn ball and chain may slow me down.

what should i do?

3 am

went to a nice house party tonight with brent and amit.
lbgt contingent in the house with a whole lotta group-make-outs going down before our eyes.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Mika

Mika

Finally getn a carwash

Finally getn a carwash

Poker time

Poker time

Dj triz

Dj triz

A n amc

A n amc

Brazilian girl

Brazilian girl

Cafe du nord

Cafe du nord

Sfxian´s angels

Sfxian´s angels

Deeznutz n ish

Deeznutz n ish

Holla @ ya boy

Ish n b

Ish n b

Blingin wit da boyz

Blingin wit da boyz

Moto n jud

Moto n jud

Test

:)c-hristian

Friday, March 04, 2005

I want a subscription to this magazine

Make magazine. DIY with digital projects.

http://make.oreilly.com/

pushing the limits of tech

goodness, it's 2:15 am and i'm still trying to get my friendster account to get an RSS feed from my blog... no such luck though.

friendster only takes rss feeds. blogger is now using atom. so in order to translate between the two, i had to channel it through an external service called feedburn or something like that. alas,,, no worky worky.

f this, i'm hittin the sacky sacky.
-sfx

Sophia h

Sophia h

What will they think of next?

It's pretty ricockulous how connected these websites are nowadays.
I just setup my flickr account and a blogger account in such a way that allows me to do the following

1) send an email from my phone and have it posted to my blog
2) leave a voicemail to a designated number and have it posted to my blog as an audio file
3) take a picture with my phone then send it to flickr to have it posted on my flickr album
4) take a picture with my phone, send it to flickr, then have flickr send it to my blog to have it posted there!

like i said ... riCOCKulous.

I see myself making quite a mess of this over the next couple years. Can't wait till they add video.

- sfx

Tahoe triz

Tahoe triz